I sat on the steps prayed, cried, prayed, and cried until I could not take the heat of the sun anymore.
End up in failure. I can't fail.
You know the comment about crying over her could be taken in different ways.
I'm done with you, I'm tired of crying over you. IT.
No really, all I do is cry over you and I'm tired of it.
I'm crying right now. I can't get over you. I can't get over the fact that you would put me through this and you exchange I love you's. I love you's that I initiate, but she still says them back.
I feel like I have a target on me. Everyone is out to get me. People take advantage of me. etc...
That girl at the club, was being mean to me for no reason. Well there might have been a reason. She was wearing a sponge bob nurse shirt, and I was signing it to a friend next to me. The place was packed. She laughed. Then about a 1/2 hour later she was trying to beat me up and stuff. Told me to sit in the corner on the couch. If I got up she would come over and tell me to sit back down. I got up to go to the bathroom and she wouldn't let me go. Then she tried to pick me up. Said she was going to kick my a$$. Everyone was going to laugh because I was going to get beat up by a girl.
I was finally able to escape the club and go home. She excorted me out. It was domineering or something. I just wanted to go home.
Early in the day a resturant owner came in. The same place with the pizza incident. Him and I talked about it days before. Now he just came in and kicked me out. I patronize his business and this is how he treats me. He was putting his finger in my face. I asked to remove is finger, politely. Then he put both of them in my face. I said I'm not one of your employees friend, please do not put your fingers in my face. Then he was throwing me out, and attempted to raise his fist at me. I said I would not do that if I were you my friend.
Really the resturant guy is an a$$. He treats all him employee's like crap. Now he is treating customers like it. I don't need to go there. I just have friends there.
I don't need to go to that club either. I don't need my cousin and his kids living with me.
I think I getting easily taken advantage of because I felt so down, lonely, and out. I just want to help folks.
Phil needs to help Phil.
Amy, Jack, Kelly, Ian... Thank you for walking the valley with me. Well you guys are walking and your trying to drag me. I'm trying to hold on.
