Not sure why I've waited so long to come here

[Snow White]

You are right and I just need to be firmer in this. I have busied myself more with defending the attacks on my morailty, ethics, honesty, mothering ect. because the one thing I take great pride in is my loyalty and my honesty so instead of setting boundaries I was busy saying I would never do that! And why do you think that! and I swear I am not doing that!

I have talked to H a few times about this in the last couple days and I think I am getting through. I really want to work on existing peacefully right now it has been very harried for the last month or so, very different from the first 6 months of this ordeal I feel like I am constantly on the defence.