Yup, Tal, that jumped out at me too. Brian, her depression very likely has NOTHING to do with your love or lack thereof for her...MANY people with wonderful spouses, who love each other fall into depression...it's a disease, not just an "emotional problem".

CJ was depressed for years (without anyone knowing it, and denying it himself)...he too found a temporary "fix" with OP. But it was illusion, it was based in lies, it was a fiction....he wasn't REAL with her, although I'm sure he felt like the person he WANTED to be.

I'm a little surprised that your W seems to think you'll wait around forever for her. Sort of like if she's willing to give up true love for this "life" so should you? Ugh!

Yet all in all, the signs are good. I just wish somehow the OG would fall face first off of the pedestal she has him on...into a giant pile of stinking doggie doo...I wish she'd SEE what a fiction all of that is. I know it's possible, it happened to CJ.

hang in there,

Shiny