Completely and utterly devastated--how to cope

[istherehope]

Yes you're right. It's his reaction that I could imagine right now as being so horrible, and this will be what (hopefully) prevents me from saying anything. It is just so painful though as I feel like each and every day he is doing something new toward moving away from me, and we do share a life.

I know, I need to work on me. I am planning to leave the country in about 2 weeks, and let him know that I will only be coming back once during the time that I'm gone. I'm still paranoid that this means he will completely give up on me, but I do realize that while I am there I will have enough distance and distractions that I will be able to refocus my attentions on myself...

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