I'm still in love with W, despite all that's happened, including her suddenly dumping me 2x for OM - once 9 years ago and now again. Recently she's started seeking more contact with me.
My fear has been that my sitch now is so similar to 9 years ago that at some point she'll say she made a mistake and want to try again. I've been feeling like I would want that.
But reading your post helps me realize that she is not a loving and committed person. And never will be unless she really works on herself. I need to remember that as I rebuild my life.
It's hard because I love her so much, and I think she does care for me quite a bit. But she has issues and I need to see those for what they are and the potential they have to create misery. Not that I'm a saint, but I am committed and I'm willing to try hard. I don't think she knows how to do that.
So again, thanks for sharing your experience. It's helpful.
