For the Guy with Kids and a WW 8

[hopeful4her]

Thanks guys.

Puppy, you being on vacation, that means a hell of a lot to me. Go enjoy and get off the damn computer. For your wife, that would be your 180, huh?

I would put a smiley at the end, but don't much feel like a smile.

Suga, thank you for the words. Pray I will. She's told me that I had become more of a father/brother figure to her. I need to let that bird fly. Her life is in her own two hands now. I pray for her.

Thank you tal. I forgot about you. Sorry.

kat, thanks as usual.



I'm actually better than I was last night. My best friend already called to check in on me. The day is going to be hard. I've had a lump in my throat all morning that is just dying to jump out of me. While talking to him, I could feel it coming, but I managed to stuff it back down. He asked how I was, I told him that I was just sad. He told me, 'Thats just reality setting in.' Great guy. Single dad. He knew GBG first when she used to work at the local daycare years ago. He had his daughter there. Been a great family friend since. Now he is only my friend. Another one she pushed away.

I've been at work over an hour already. I've read your posts. Just hard to reply. That lump in my throat is killing me.

My boss has already offered to buy me lunch today. I can't recall if I told her about today, though. Thats funny. I told her that I was going to be in a weird mood today. She felt so bad for me, but she encourages me.

This morning, I'M the one that slept through the alarm. I am being nudged by roomie. "Do you have to go in early?" she asks. I am looking at her like, "Where the hell am I?"

The alarm had been going off for about 30 minutes. I must have been exhausted. I am up and getting ready. Rushing. Ironing my clothes. She stays up and starts in on her drawers again already. I get ready and kiss my girls goodbye while they are sleeping.

Roomie made coffee already. I make my cup and walk over to the bedroom.

This time I look her in the eye. Our eyes meet.

"Goodbye" and I give a wave of my hand.
"Goodbye" looking back at me.