I don't know if I can live like this, not being able to trust in anything.
I can relate to this Brian.
I'm more depressed now than hurt.
Completely understandable. Allow yourself some time, allow her some time. There seems to be some positives moving beneath the rubble of the past.
My W shared some gossip about some neighbors who are having a hard time in their M due to possible infidelity on his part. She seemed to be fully able to understand how wrong and painful it is when it happens to somebody else. And she brought it up in a way that showed that she was being sensitive to my feelings. Maybe she was trying to demonstrate some understanding without being direct about it.
It would seem to me that that was her way (albeit diluted) of showing sensitivity, demonstrating some understanding, and possibly even apologizing for her own misdeeds.
