Well..confused as ever here. H came over last night to drop of D from their visit at his house. He decided he needed to take the koi out of our koi pond and take them to his house. I was thinking WTF???? How about you take the dog and the cat you dumpted me with, but whatever...I just let him take them..no sense in arguing. It seems he really doesn't have any plans to come back home. I'm in a "get on with my life mood". Doubt it will last...it never does.
At any rate...when H was here...we did end up messing around...of course he said he thinks I am using sex as a tool to pull him back in....not sure if I should feel encouraged by this...does that mean he thinks I can pull him back in???? Anyway, after sex he took off like a bat out of hell. When tears started to form in my eyes when he was leaving I just said a quick bye and turned my back to him and walked away so he wouldn't see the hurt in my eyes. I am starting to feel bad after sex....think I'll stop.
