Im done.

[bluerain]

Ahh finally home! Its been an intense 2 days! Getting samples from dead whales, I am exhausted. On the way out there I sent a text to him saying that I wanted him to know that when I said that I feel better than I have in years, what I really meant was that I feel better than I have in a while. This afternoon when I got back in cell range he had sent me one that said hes glad Im feeling better and he really appreciated the clarification. I didnt respond. I think Ill just hang out, Im taking the papers to our m counselor next wed, he knows that Im doing it. I really want to ask him if this is still what he wants, but I dont want to push him away, so I wont...

I feel like seeing him cry set me back months! I was to a point that I hardly thought about him at all and now I cant stop thinking about him. Just when I thought I had it all figured out, I am more confused than ever!