Hi peace- I doubt we will ever know the whole reason why this happened. I sometimes think it is a character flaw...then sometimes I just think it is the luck of the draw since there seems to be so many people that experience something like this.
That has to be difficult for you that your H can't bring your kids to where he now lives. Do you believe that is the case? Try to do what is best for you but ultimately you have to do what is right for your kids as hard as that may be...and I agree that you need to let go of the "why"...you may get the answer someday...or you may not.
I think it is good that you are stating on the record that you are will to reconcile with C. Your H will proably just ignore it right now, but it may sink in later.
Hope your S is feeling better and be thankful that your H is there to help in some capacity.
