OW is PG

[Livin4ME]

Thank you so much for your post! I'm not sure on the PG. H said the 1st test was a negative. He did not see the 2nd test. She said it was taken at the dr's and she does not have the test, but has paperwork stating it's positive. He has not said whether or not he has seen it tho. Last night she pulled the 'end-all' card. She can't do it. Tell her dad goodbye for her and gave H his number. All of this after telling him yesterday that she was going to terminate it. But if she didn't, he would never know. All of this after being adament about never having children. Not only telling him this, but also telling me.
This time, it feels different than when he would come home before. This will make the 7th or 8th time. But they were all at my urging. I was giving him ultimatums. I would start talking about it and I would pretty much talk him into it. This time, it was not like that. I had given up. I threw my white flag in and even invited them over for a bbq 1.5 months ago! I go out, I have fun, I've started knitting again, reading, playing poker online (non paying websites only!), taking care of myself. I've lost 65 lbs thru all this!!! I'm registering for school on Monday for something I've been wanting to do for years! I stopped being mean and started being his friend. He started asking for my advice on things again.
Then 3 weeks ago, he started talking about it. I didn't beg, I didn't plead. He would say it was so hard to end it with her. All I said was it's like ripping a bandaid. If you want something bad enough, it doesn't matter how hard it is because you know the rewards are worth it. I left it at that. Before, when we brushed up against each other, he would pull away like he was on fire. He's not doing that. We're hanging out. Talking. Laughing. And he's initiating it. And it's not just about the sex this time. We actually sat next to each other for like 4 hours last night playing poker online. And he is the one who asked if I wanted to play. This is how we've been for the past 3 weeks.
It doesn't feel like a honeymoon phase like before. It feels like a comfortable friendship with little looks every once in a while with lots of laughter. We have our passionate moments that have been absolutely amazing and better than anytime before.
The thing I'm worried most about is, we have an order to enter the judgement next week. It either has to be entered or it's dismissed. 48 hours ago, there was no question as to what I was going to do. 24 hours ago, she dropped her bomb.