in limbo and an emotional mess...

[MAZ]

Hello all, been a while since i've posted, just been crazy with the kids, summertime ya know, H still not home, still working on that, just got back the other day from a weekend in VT with H and the kids, it was nice to get away from here and the OW and all the b/s. OW got really mad that H was going away with me and the boys for the weekend and packed her stuff up and "supposedly" moved out of H's place,, so thats a start,, but now that we are back she will worm her way back i'm sure. If H lets her move back in I give up,, this is his perfect opportunity to get her out and keep her out, but I just don't know if that will happen. I am now 12 weeks pregnant, and everything so far looks good, waiting for a few test results to come back but other than that ultrasound, etc. looks good. H is doing a reversal on the being happy about it mostly he says because of our ages, and the fact that we are way past the baby stage with our boys at 15 and 13, I kinda get his point on that but what do you do. OW texted and called H at least 15-20 times while we were away this weekend but good thing about VT, lol no cell phone signal to check the messages, she has gotten very obnoxious about their relationship before we went away, posting comments on H's profile online and putting his online name into her profile commenting on how "intense" their relationship is and that it gets stronger every day.. i lost it on that one, she has taken it upon herself to tell people that she isn't concerned about me being pregnant because there is no way i can carry it to term anyway,, ummm where does she get that from? In any case the weekend with H and the boys was good, we talked a bit when we could without the kids around, but still need to talk some more. I'm not pushing too much, but I can't deal with thinking that she will find a way to get back into the middle of things again,,,especially since i know how she operates,, she moved out to get him to run back again,, i just hope he's not dumb enough to do it again..