Bring on the Rain - Part 4

[SueS]

Hi everyone!

Gosh, thank you, thank you, thank you. You all mean so much to me!!

I'm sitting in the hotel room/suite that my family rented for the weekend. With H's help moving so much over the weekend, we were out and done moving me in to the new place by noon. Whew! Now just a lot of work to put things together.

H offered to help move the last few heavy things. He did help. On the way back to pick up a load, the topic on the radio was about divorce. I changed it. He asked why. I said that today wasn't the day that I wanted to listen to that. He said, Sue, I thought today would be the happiest day of your life...well, the second happiest (after D4's birth). I asked why he'd say that. His response...because your rid of me. I didn't say anything. When H got ready to leave for work, he grabbed D4 to say good-bye. He was crying. No, he has not sat with me to talk to D4. We thought that this weekend will be so busy with my family here that we'll do it on Sunday when he comes over. H gave my mom a hug and told her thank you for her help. He also shook my dad's hand and thanked him. And....thanked the others there. I walked to his car with him. I said, H, thank you. I'll talk to you soon. I also said H, I want you to know that this is not the happiest day of my life....in fact, it's one of the most difficult days I've had. He wouldn't look at me. I stepped back, he shut his door and drove away. He called later in the day to make sure we got everything moved.

Today was tough. I talked to a good friend last night before I left work. She hugged me and I started crying. She said, Sue, I want to say some things....
-The next few days will be very hard.
-This is the hardest thing you've ever had to do.
-This is also the strongest thing you've ever done.
-After everyone is gone, you'll have lonely times.
-I want you to promise me that you call me when those days get lonely.
-I want you to promise me you'll ask me to come over even if it's just to sit in silence with you.
-I want you to know that you'll be okay.

Well, I really need to go. The family is all chatting and I need to get to them.

Thanks again everyone!

SueS