thanks, I am not sure how to do a "thread" I will have to look that up. I think sometimes I do have courage, but other days I'm scared. I miss not having my daughter, I let my ex have physical custody because I had just lost my job, so I moved in with my OM (really wanted my own place) and I wanted my daughter to live in her home (we had built a new home in a better town with a better school system) I did not want to take my daughter away from all that, I only would be hurting her. But then I think I will be explaining myself and under a tight thumb for the rest of my life. One time, my ex had broken his heel and I would come over and do the wash, get dinner, get ice and one night I was really horney and told him that, he said it would make things complicated and I said that I didn't care, but I tried everything and he couldn't get it up. I never felt so sleazy in all my life. I was felt like is was forcing him to have sex with me.I made him loose his "moe-joe" and I think that I probably ruined it for life! and it wasn't that great to begin with!
