need help

[itsy]

I have a problem and need help

I have been divorced for 2 years. The ex had a very severe MLC.
100's of other women, a prostitue for a girlfriend, extremely mean and full of anger. Told visious lies to his famiy about me and his mother calls me a bitch. He has had a another girlfriend since I told him to leave in April of 2005. He has not followed the divorce agrement, has not fulfilled the monetary agreement. Talks mean to me if he doesn't get his way. writes mean emails regarding divorce business. He still sees prostitues and other women and his girlfriend does not know.

I have post traumatic stress syndrome. It has taken me a very long time to get it together. He feels that he can still treat me like he used too or however he pleases. I do not talk to him I do not want anything to do with him. NOthing. I have gotten extremely strong in myself. I have a great life and I am very happy that I never have to see him or talk to him. He is a narcisstic,mean, arrogant. manipulating , controlling, sociopath. I never yelled at him or told him what I think of him and his MLC. It started in 2001 and I don't think he ever came out of it. I absolutely refuse to have anything to do with him. This arrangement works for me.


My children never supported me during this time that I was going thru MLC with EX. They do not understand what I go thru if I have contact with him. I get very upset. I have nightmares . I am unable to take care of myself...It is very very upsetting to me.
My children want me to get along with him. They do not want to see what I go thru. They were never there for me. Hell they still aren't. My grandson has a birthday Saturday he will be 3. I am not going to the party if Ex goes. I can not put myself thru that. I will be upset for days. My mother and sister do not support me or have been loyal to me in regards to speaking to EX.

My son who has the grandsons does not see my point. He wants me to come. I just got off the phone with him. He proceeded to tell me that I have to get along. That he doesn't like how I don't want to get along. That I should because of my children and the grand children. That holidays celebrations thru out the year are messed up because I will not get along. My Ex asked him if I was going to the party. I wonder if my son spoke to him? I cetainly doubt it because of the way my EX is.
I don't know what to do. I need help. My children do not see my point. They never have. I have tried to be nice about all ths and yet they ge mad at me because of how I feel. The oldst son was NEVER there for me. He never called me while this whole fiasco was going on. My daughter was never never there and used to get mad at me because of what I was going thru, My youngest son treats me like his father does.

I am tired of putting up with how they want things to be with out seeing my side. I am not asking them to choose. I just want to be treated nice and respect how I feel.
I know that it has been hard on them it still is in regards to how their father treats them. He doesn't have that much to do with them . He is a very manipulated person. He likes to control. And I get treated with out respect from them because of how he treated me through the marriage. They talk to me and treat like the father and I will absolutely not be treated like that again in my life by anyone.
I don't know what to do anymore. It can not go on like this anymore. I am tired of them trying to make me feel bad becauseI will not have anything to do with him.

What would you suggest I do? Please I need answers. Thanks Itsy