Well, I was working at home yesterday and H paid me a little surprise visit with no warning. He came home to finalize plans to tell the kids.

Surprisingly, I held it all together and treated it like some kind of business deal until the very end and some tears came.

We tell the kids tomorrow after their camp. H will say that it is his decision to separate.

He will show the kids his place next Wednesday.

He will move out next weekend.

Our weekly schedule: kids will be with H Sat. evening through Tuesday afternoon. Kids will be with me Tues afternoon through Sat. evening.

I'm not sure how I will manage that first Sat. night without either of my kids, but I know I will.

This morning I told my boss what has been going on with me since March 07. She is also a friend, not someone I do things with outside of work, but a friend. She says she has no idea how I kept it from everyone at work all this time, that I seemed so normal and got my work done. She can't beleive it. She is supportive. I had to explain that I had no idea on if or when I'd be at work next week - this week was supposed to be our beach vacation so the kids are not in camp and I had planned on not working at all anyway (I am sooooo thankful that my job gives me that kind of flexibility).

When I have some energy, I'll write about some of the mlc type things my H said during our discussion.

You'd think I'd be used to it after 16 months - but sometimes it just really blows my mind!


Nature Girl
M 40
H 40
M 15, T 19
D11 S9
bomb 3/07 (MOW)