i'm tired of a lot of things. i have to vent somewhere, so it may as well be here and in prayer. i'm tired of having instinct, i'm tired of knowing that my xw is having a difficult time of things, i'm tired of knowing that my xf is so damaged that she doesn't think she deserves a good man, and i'm tired of knowing that both of their decisions will come with regret. i'm tired of having any love or compassion for either of them. i'm tired of not having another adult here to help or to talk to. i'm tired of doing everything alone. i'm tired of learning lessons. i'm tired of knowing that great things are around the corner once i get my house in order. i'm tired of losing people. i'm tired of forgiveness. i'm tired of my boys asking me about xf, i'm tired of them not seeing how a woman should be treated. i'm tired of not being able to be the parent i want to be, i'm tired of not being the man that God wants me to be, i'm tired of being alone, i'm tired of knowing that as long as i have faith everything will work out how it should. i'm tired because i have no time to sleep. i am just so tired. sometimes i'd rather i was still lost.

Last edited by phoenyx; 07/31/08 02:36 PM.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.