Looking for support from other WAS's

[lost3031]

Bridgestone, just got back from the mini-vacation with H. Overall, things went well. We got along as fabulously as we always do and enjoyed the concert. I tried to take your advice and have lowered expectations about our time together but I confess that I hoped that, miraculously, all of those feelings would come rushing back to me in three days. So of course, when they didn't (and believe me, I tried to make myself feel them) I felt terribly sad. When I'm with H, I still feel comfortable and safe. It still feels natural to hold his hand as we walk through a store and to kiss him goodnight. Yet it seems like lately I view him as my best friend (which he always has been) instead of my husband. When he was telling me a story about trying to get one of his friends to convince a woman to call him (my H), I didn't get jealous. Since I left, the very thought of another woman being with my H has felt like a knife in the heart (I know, how hypocritical for someone like me) but this time we actually joked about it. For the first time, I didn't cry when I left him to return to my apartment. This concerns me a lot. What am I doing wrong here? I thought spending more time with H was supposed to bring back the feelings, not make them disappear more! Is this just a natural part of the process? Or am I just trying to hard to force something that will only come in its own time?