Keep strong. We all get ovewhelmed at times in our journey.
If a wave knocks you down then you get back up. We all relate to your feelings cause their our feelings too.
Some days will be harder than others and the triggers will be there.
You talk a good game so you must be able to walk the walk too.
Trust in yourself to overcome the changes and obstacles in your way. When you need a hand then reach out. You will be surprised at how many hands will stop your fall.
Sending positive vibes from the land of Heather and mist.
Kenny
Me:40 WAW, MLC?:39 Kids:S11,S9 T:25, M:14 ILYB:Apr 08 W moved out Aug 08 W:Does not Want to Try
Keep the faith Mike and stay off that rollercoaster
I know Tim, it pisses me off. I know it's coming, I can feel it approaching. I'm good at fighting it off most days but seem to just give in to it on some days..
and it sucks when I do.
I appreciate the support. Thanks for that. You continue to do well by the way. I hope you saw my explaination on why I moved. It's best for me at the moment. Getting caught up over here is daunting but I'll manage. Slowly but surly making new friends over here.
Keep the drinks flowing and they spill their guts or I spill mine, that's both literally and figuratively. LOL
I saw your explanation and knew you had to move from reading your locked post it just I hate seeing it all come to an end. I, like Arthur had hoped it would all work out but it just was not meant to be.
Glad you moved from being a porn star to something respectable like a bar owner.
Stay tough man, you aren't alone in those feelings. I don't think there is one of us on here that don't feel that way at least 1 or 10 times a week okay maybe a day.
You are gonna be fine the self doubt and hurt will go away you must believe in yourself this to be true...
So hoist up some AppleJack Shine and start hollerin for that bama tide football team...
I wondered if I was ever truly loved in either my 1st or 2nd M?
YES It's so easy to doubt what we know was true. They wouldnt have said I do if it wasn't there. Things change Mike, that doesnt mean they were never that way.
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I wonder if I really know how love feels..relationship love?
YES Come on now, don't make me come over there and knock you off that silly pity pot you have yourself purched upon. You my friend are the one that truly knows. You have done this twice and twice you have shown that you know what love truly is, THEY forgot...not you.
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It's hard for me to believe in me right now. I wish I had more self confidence, I wish I was a better communicator. I wish I was outgoing and able to just start up a conversation.
Sounds to me like you just established some new goals for yourself. I mean all of this would make a great goals list wouldn't you say? There are plenty of ways to work on all 3 of these things. So start doing it. I would suggest you pick up the following Mike.
This would be a great place to start as it addresses all 3 of your wishes.
As far as where you are moving, it doesn't really matter who is married or who is single or what is there now does it? God has a plan for you, that cottage is part of the plan and all will be ok. You will meet new people, you will make new friends, you will find new activities.
As Lissie said, take a long hard look at your D while she sleeps. There is nothing more rejuvinating then your children when you are down. There is nothing that reminds you more about what is important and what isnt than their innocent sleeping faces.
Stay tough man, you aren't alone in those feelings. I don't think there is one of us on here that don't feel that way at least 1 or 10 times a week okay maybe a day.
Racefan,
That is so true..... Those waves will come... I have talked to people who are Ded for over ten years and remarried .... They still get hit with that wave from time to time..... It is all very natural.....
Take Care,
NMD
"Chains do not hold a marriage together. It is threads, hundreds of tiny threads which sew people together through the years. That is what makes a marriage last --more than passion or even sex!" - Simone Signoret
Stay tough man, you aren't alone in those feelings. I don't think there is one of us on here that don't feel that way at least 1 or 10 times a week okay maybe a day.
You are gonna be fine the self doubt and hurt will go away you must believe in yourself this to be true...
So hoist up some AppleJack Shine and start hollerin for that bama tide football team...
Brian
thanks for the talk brother..thank god for great cell phone plans..
Ian, I'll get the book. Thanks for the help. It's a pisser when I know the coaster is coming, can feel it, then just let it pick me up. Don't know why it happens. I guess my brain just says let this crap out before it comes out another way.
self doubt is a real issue with me I think. I've always had it and don't really know why. The communication crap and all that too. I'm better at it but it still makes me uncomfortable sometimes. I've never wanted to be in the "spotlight" but wanted to be really good in the background..ya feel me?? it's hard to describe..
Yep..D I know..Ya know I got in late again last night. D was in the bath, she had bath time with STBX. I walked ina nd STBX engaged me via D..which was fine, I went with it. Anyway D gets out andf lately she gravitates towards me a bit. I'm sure it's because I've not been around as much anyway I sat on the loveseat beside D and she has got into doing this thing she does where she justs lays her head on me, not a hug, but just lays over and makes a noise, sort of like a pleasent sigh..It's nice, it feels good. It feels like love.
I wondered about the origins of blowing smoke up someone's patookie. Here's what I've found:
It was a method of resuscitation used by the North American Indians. The procedure involved blowing tobacco smoke into the victim's rectum. Smoke was first blown into an animal bladder, then into the victim's rectum. If the patient didn't react they were dead. American colonists introduced the procedure in England in the late 1700's. A long glass pipe was used in lieu of an animal bladder. It's usage continued to the 1800's.
I wondered about the origins of blowing smoke up someone's patookie. Here's what I've found:
It was a method of resuscitation used by the North American Indians. The procedure involved blowing tobacco smoke into the victim's rectum. Smoke was first blown into an animal bladder, then into the victim's rectum. If the patient didn't react they were dead. American colonists introduced the procedure in England in the late 1700's. A long glass pipe was used in lieu of an animal bladder. It's usage continued to the 1800's.
What a way to get a reaction!
*hugs*
so was yesterday the first time you ever heard this reference used?
and by reading the origins that you posted I'm glad I don't partake of the procedure.
