Ian, I'll get the book. Thanks for the help. It's a pisser when I know the coaster is coming, can feel it, then just let it pick me up. Don't know why it happens. I guess my brain just says let this crap out before it comes out another way.
self doubt is a real issue with me I think. I've always had it and don't really know why. The communication crap and all that too. I'm better at it but it still makes me uncomfortable sometimes. I've never wanted to be in the "spotlight" but wanted to be really good in the background..ya feel me?? it's hard to describe..
Yep..D I know..Ya know I got in late again last night. D was in the bath, she had bath time with STBX. I walked ina nd STBX engaged me via D..which was fine, I went with it. Anyway D gets out andf lately she gravitates towards me a bit. I'm sure it's because I've not been around as much anyway I sat on the loveseat beside D and she has got into doing this thing she does where she justs lays her head on me, not a hug, but just lays over and makes a noise, sort of like a pleasent sigh..It's nice, it feels good. It feels like love.
