Well.. thank you for all the love you gave me yesterday.. the posts, phone calls, chats. *hugs* This site has really been a godsend.
Slamming back into the throes of a depression by missing the medication was shocking. I didn't realize I was so distraught inside. I'll be consistent on taking the meds now.
My serotonin levels may be shot, but I CAN be active participant in being healthy, which has to help on all levels. The first is to stop using what is most harmful to me.
Sugar is my drug of choice. My comfort foods are all sugar laden. A few years ago I stopped eating processed sugar. My focus was anything that was in a box.. like cookies, ice cream, etc. I'd still allow myself a glass of wine or a beer. Any thing natural that was sweet I'd eat. Within 10 days of eliminating processed sugar I'd start feeling so much better. My thinking was clearer, I didn't get rattled, I'd have perspective and could see farther than the immediate moment.
Since spouse admitted his committed relationship with her I've allowed myself to eat what I want when I want. Sometimes I don't even want it, but I eat it.
It's time to process the emotions and not the sugar. Ahh yes.. and this is with my daughter's ice cream cake made by the most incredible place sitting in the freezer. No time like the present to deal with life as it is.
