I wondered if I was ever truly loved in either my 1st or 2nd M?
YES It's so easy to doubt what we know was true. They wouldnt have said I do if it wasn't there. Things change Mike, that doesnt mean they were never that way.
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I wonder if I really know how love feels..relationship love?
YES Come on now, don't make me come over there and knock you off that silly pity pot you have yourself purched upon. You my friend are the one that truly knows. You have done this twice and twice you have shown that you know what love truly is, THEY forgot...not you.
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It's hard for me to believe in me right now. I wish I had more self confidence, I wish I was a better communicator. I wish I was outgoing and able to just start up a conversation.
Sounds to me like you just established some new goals for yourself. I mean all of this would make a great goals list wouldn't you say? There are plenty of ways to work on all 3 of these things. So start doing it. I would suggest you pick up the following Mike.
This would be a great place to start as it addresses all 3 of your wishes.
As far as where you are moving, it doesn't really matter who is married or who is single or what is there now does it? God has a plan for you, that cottage is part of the plan and all will be ok. You will meet new people, you will make new friends, you will find new activities.
As Lissie said, take a long hard look at your D while she sleeps. There is nothing more rejuvinating then your children when you are down. There is nothing that reminds you more about what is important and what isnt than their innocent sleeping faces.