I think what you experienced is called "life" Barb It sometimes isn't what we planned. YOU will find a way and rise above it. (cream rises to the top)
Hope today goes better. I really shouldn,t have read this as I have finally decide to redo the kitchen in my shoebox! only taken me 5 years -I just hear so many horror stories. Funny how what seemed the most ugly disgusting kitchen (think 70's) I got used to.