((((KJ)))), I'm here & I don't see where you're messing up at all. I see your goals, those are good. How did it go with your S ?
hugs
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.