I am sure the mixed messages have to be difficult but I think you are doing the right thing by watching out for your feelings. If you can handle more, then let yourself go there...if it is going to bring you more pain, then stay away from anything you can't handle.
Your H is so confused. He says he wants out but is so afraid to make the final step. Do what you have been doing...not giving him any reason to make that step...but at the same time be prepared that he might.
I hope things get easier for you...and I hope your H quickly figures out that grass isn't any greener.
