Hi Cinders, peace and NG- My S seems to be doing fine although they want to run one more test to be sure. The doctor had thoughts that my S could be one of these athletes that just drops dead out of the blue. We were pretty relieved to find out everything seems to be okay. He competed with his team over the last four days and they did extremely well. Yeah!
Now my H has me so confused. Maybe I am being paranoid but I sense that he is avoiding spending much time with me. He did drive an hour each way to go to a couple of my S's games...but we have no time together to work on anything. My H couldn't make it last week's C appointment. I cancelled this week's C because of my S's games. Today my H told me that I need to reschedule next's appointment. Grrr...I told my H that I don't want to be doing this a year from now...he agreed. I have gotten so frustrated, I even told him I just don't want to do this anymore and it is like he does hear me. We were supposed to meet for dinner tonight but he cancelled by text saying he was tired. He did call later and I asked him if he could sense my frustration. He said he did and was willing to talk. I asked him what makes him happy...he said he didn't really know and that it changes but he is trying to figure it out. I suggested to him that it is all about perspective and focusing on what you do have rather than what you don't. He told me that he doesn't feel that he has been successful yet in his life. I pointed out his successes...I am not sure he heard me.
So, I really sense right now he doesn't want me to go anywhere. He just isn't really to to step up and commit to anything.
I know I need to be thankful for the positives...but as I have said before, even with the positives, this is still difficult.
