Help...I think I did a 180...I hope

[Sophie]

Ah-Hah!! That makes sense! I really am okay with me; it's been awful feeling he is not okay with me. And...I am getting quicker at getting beyond that awful feeling each time H is nasty.

It's 10:09pm...he just left. I asked if they had a good time.

H said, 'Yes...thank you'
Me: Good...I had a chance to regroup, I've been running in a 1000 different directions lately.

Then he leaned over to look at this computer and I ever so casually minimized the screen. whew!

H and I have always enjoyed visiting and talking about life. That confuses me.
If we can get along that well, why are we doing this? Why does this have to happen to the kids?

Neither H or I have a ton of friends or family. H's family is very distant. They are friendly and fun, but distant.

In many ways...he and I have been the most true to each other out of anyone else in our lives.

But...he refuses to acknowledge that.

Sleeper~~

It is so true that the kids and I have been sort of a package deal! That is my doing, for sure.

I need to read, and re-read!!!