being able to forgive someone for betraying you is difficult and hard and takes so much more then just saying those words. it takes practice and it is somthing we have to work on every single day. i know because i am not stupid that there are days when I am acting like a real [censored] and I see the look in Allies face and i know from reading here from you other women that she is reminded of the past.and even perfect Allie has at times thrown the past in my face which only goes to show that even though she wants to forgive me it will take time and I think eventually it will get easier. as you can tell I also have issues with forgivness and even on this site with anonymous people there have been words said to me by people I thought i could somewhat trust who have totally cut me to the core. i read recently on another thread some of the things said about me. and yes some could say I deserve it for how harsh I am with others. but i wanted you to know that my heart is not full of malice and i am not out to hurt others here regardless of popular opinion. there is no need to jump in and defend other posters just because you dont like what i have said. come to me yourself and tell me. i have apologized before and i am not too proud to keep aplogizing. but i hate gossip even here and when i cam eback here again it was after a long absence and only because I was asked to. i did not appreciate hearing the nasty ugly words from a certain poster who was so qucik to jump in and spew her words in order to make other people look bad. sometimes you gotta hold your tongue and as i posted to someone else recently when spouting off scripture this one comes to mind. EVEN A FOOL IS CONSIDERED WISE WHEN HE IS QUIET.
