Lanzo, Having sex is such a big leap for a couple that has no physical intimacy.
Sleeping elsewhere indicates to me that she doesn't want intimacy with me. She just wants a roof over her head, and money to take dance classes, and vacations. She wants me as a dance partner so she could have a social life.
I don't see how I could have sex under the circumstances. I'm supposed to hurry-up and have sex because the clock is ticking?
She sleeps apart from me when we sleep in the same bed. There is no physical intimacy in public. She hides that we're married.
This is hardly a catalyst for me wanting to pursue intimacy in the M.
I'm working at managing the difficult emotions just to stay her dance partner and friend. Maybe procrastinating with intimacy is my way of managing the difficult emotions.
The pressure that I'm feeling lately will either mobilize or paralyze me.
I'm not looking for a perfect scenario, just a sign to move forward. CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
