Ms. Imp and Her Magic Kumquat 2

[girlfromipanema]

(((((Hello all))))))

I thought I was doing so well... but I'm having a hard time breathing. Every few minutes I have to take in a big gulp of air through my mouth and then let it out. It makes me feel a tiny bit better for a tiny fraction of a moment.

I'm scared.

I'm leaving my home over the course of the next week.

I'm leaving my belongings, my garden, my cat, my marriage, my LIFE.

It's a HUGE adjustment. Sometimes I feel so confident and "ready". Other times I feel like I'm crumbling... like the world is crumbling around me.

I know this will pass and I will be OK. But HOLY F*CK.