Bring on the Rain - Part 4

[SueS]

Rob-

I know that if H really reached out, he could find a place to stay....sacking out on a friend's couch. I mean c'mon, what about all of his 20-something friends that were good enough to hit the bars with? There are also a ton of motels in the area that he can stay at that would work out to be no less than rent anyway.

I also have to remember that if H didn't have his DUI to contend with and his job performance was up a little, his attitude and outlook on the situation would likely be very different. Right now, he's only driving to/from work. That puts a tremendous damper on the time he can spend with OW. Not just from his end, but OW has 4 kids and they're not in school right now. OW's husband is back working, so she's at home with the kids all day. She could leave them with someone, I guess, but she's trying not to take too many chances with her actions as far as they go right now. She is planning on trying to get custody of them.

Applied for apartments??? I know he called on one. That's all I'm aware of. He thought he had a place with me. Not sure why he didn't scramble more this past week. It was last Monday that I told him he couldn't move with us.

Your comment about H wanting his freedom... I told a good friend the same thing today. He wanted this. I didn't. I have to remind myself that HE wanted this.

Karen- Just ask Rob or look at my thread. I have a tough time keeping OW and my other marital issues separated. H has told me that she has nothing to do with this. She didn't start our problems, but as you feel, I also feel like she was the barrier to us ever being able to work on things. Just couldn't happen with her in the picture.

Feels so odd now that things are coming down to the wire. My mind is a scrambled mess. I don't know what to put where. H, D4 and I were doing something last night and it hit me.....this won't happen again. My boss is having another tough day. Not my fault this time!! He said, Sue, I'm just so ready for this day to be over. I said, I'm ready for the week to be done...I'm already running on empty. I was sitting here about an hour ago and started to get light headed and sick to my stomach. It hit me.....I hadn't eaten anything since late yesterday afternoon.

SueS