Mulesqb - Still alive and Kickin'

[mulesqb]

Thanks KJ - I understand what you are saying. I shouldn't say I was encouraging her. She said that she thinks we need to separate and I said "ok, I understand that's what you need to do".

I have been trying to be that friend and be there - but she said to me - "that's great that you want to be there for me but you are the one I'm in conflict with, so i can't really talk to you". She then spent the next hour confiding with me and turning it into her issue with the kids.

Thank you though - I see that I just have to stay with it no matter what she says to me and how she treats me.

I did actually hug her twice this morning. She was crying a lot and just looked so desperate - so I grabbed her and hugged her and rubbed her back. I couldn't help it. I didn't say anything though. The other backslide was that I did tell her I loved her again. She was just saying that she doesn't feel part of anything anymore and feels so lonely. I just said that she wasn't really alone and that i loved her and was there for her if she felt comfortable enough to talk to me.

I won't go dark - but as you know it's hard being in the same house and sleeping in the same bed. There are so many times I just want to hold her - not sexually, but I can't because I know it makes her angry.