Patience is a virtue.....

[pisces9]

thanks Neil- im trying!
well i also realized why i was in such a crappy mood..it all hit at once...my RA (rhematoid arthritis) is very under control and im very active but i do need to take my medication once per week-well ive been doing so well that ive been taking it only every few weeks...i forget that one of the first signs ill be needing it is that i get cranky, i get depressed/melancholy and i start to feel flu-like symptoms...DUH. so now im feeling pretty achy too and im alone and im sad. so clearly this makes for a wonderful combination of moods! yipee! so, yes- ill be taking my medication as soon as i can....

and yes, ill realize this and stay away from any "suck holes" with arguments...

also- when my H and i were together he had a hard time caring for me when i was feeling achy. i wasnt that moody with it but he just didnt like seeing me out of whack for a few days....thats something that has to change bc what i really need from him is support and love when i have a flare up. all i wnat is a hug or a cup of tea or to watch a movie. but i felt i needed to prove something by being active or pushing myself when i felt like SH*T. thats part of what i have...it only happens less then once per month....not so much to ask for...another lesson learned is to accept myself and my limitations. i am not wonder woman!