Bring on the Rain - Part 4

[SueS]

Rob-

No, no....I know what you mean. I know that the A is just a symptom. Sometimes, even for as long as this A has gone on, it's hard to push that aside and see that it's not the main problem for us. We do have many, many other issues that we'd have to work out. I guess I should have said that I can't have everything, not just the A in my face anymore. I need some space to get back to me.

I know that if my H told me that he wanted to come back I would need to be strong and tell him what would need to be done before that could happen. Not just his issues, but mine. I'm human, I do have some issues! It would be hard for me, but I'd have to do it. Today when he told me that he might go back to IN because he doesn't have a place to say, it hurt. However, I was strong enough to realize that letting him back in wasn't an option. I can't bend for him on this. That's not something that I would have done 6 months...maybe even 2 months ago.

I think sometimes that I don't word everything correctly. I just don't want you to think....Sue, Sue, Sue....when are you ever going to understand!!

SueS