Hi gang,
I hope you all had good weekends. H was away this weekend at wedding where no kids allowed. it was one of his scuba diving friends. I told him as he left that I would miss him. He asked me if I wanted him to give up diving. My face said I did but I said no you enjoy it too much I don't want to spoil that for you. He said I will if you want me to. I didn't say anything else. There is no way I want him to give up because I asked him to, I know where that will lead - he will end up resenting me for it. But i did miss him this weekend and I also found myself resenting having to take care of kids on my own and also explaining where he was and seeing looks on people's faces like I'm a doormat or something. I know I'm not a doormat and I just think well I'm not that controlling wife anymore and if you want to be like that with your H then just go ahead and see where it gets you.

Long time friend who is godfather to S came over on Sunday with his Ds to give S his birthday gift. We had a good time mucking about with the kids in the garden. Friend took his shirt off because they were playing with water pistols, I couldn't help noticing how fit he looked and wondering what would have happened if WE had got it together. We could have done but I turned him down. Probably would have ended up on these boards just the same LOL

Just my musings

Fran

if we can be sufficient to ourselves, we need fear no entangling webs
Erica Jong