I see I haven't posted in a week. That must be a good sign. We have been mostly doing well. I got a bit worried at weekend that we might be backsliding. Nothing concrete but I just felt like I did maybe 5 years ago, before relationship had started to go bad but then again not so good either. I tried to brainstorm some 180s, tried to think up some goals but we have been having a really busy time and on Tuesday had a big party for S4's birthday. So lots of planning and preparation for that. It went well and H said afterwards that although it was hard work he enjoyed it and felt like we were a team again.
We spent some time afterwards just chatting outside and he mentioned that he noticed I had been on this board. So I talked a bit about how it was helping me and talked about some of the other things that have been bothering me. We had a bit of a stressful time on morning of S's birthday becuase we had planned to take him to legoland but got caught in bad traffic and had to turn back. Ended up spending 2.5 hrs in car in 30 deg heat with no a/c. Yuck. H was crabby. But he told me although he felt crabby and that it had gone badly he knew that he would still rather be doing that than not be with us. One good thing about summer is that we can sit outside and talk. H is a smoker and I don't like him to smoke around me and the kids so he has to go outside winter or summer. In summer we can sit and chat and he can smoke which keeps him relaxed and the conversation flows. Don't know what we'll do in the winter.
Fran
if we can be sufficient to ourselves, we need fear no entangling webs Erica Jong
