Mulesqb - Still alive and Kickin'

[mulesqb]

Hey LHF - I am trying very hard not to take personally. It's just that we function like a family - but it is very fake. She acts normal and than withdraws completely. Every time i think that her and i are getting closer she makes sure that doesn't happen.

I agree about the psychiatrist but see no way to make that happen. My IC and I tried a few things but none of them worked. I also hate these R talks. Phoenix warned me against having them and she keeps bringing them up and I try to run away from them.

We usually go to church as a family. Sometimes because of the kids activities we would split up and go to different masses. As far as friends go, she has divorced herself from any of our friends that would be good influences.

Thanks for the kind words - I won't give up - it just gets very hard and VERY frustrating - even when i am detaching and reminding myself that it is her problem. It's funny I actually felt like she was smothering me a little this week to an extent and then would back away.