Thanks Nik for your input. That is interesting what you say. Whenever I have tried to look on the bright side it is about the kids future with us rather than me clinging on to the past. It would upset the grandparents but then our family should be about us and the kids. I would like to give the kids a chance not to be brought up straight into the rat race so maybe moving away IS the right idea.
Anyway I have been reading John Gray's book How to Get what You Want and be happy with what you have. It's very interesting, very spiritual and has led me to think that I will get what I want if I leave it in God's hands. He will guide me and if I spend more time keeping in touch with Him then I will know what to do. I tried to think about that today and think about the things that I would do if we emigrated. The parts of my deep down dreams that I could follow if we did and it all started to make sense.
Thanks again, it helps
Fran
if we can be sufficient to ourselves, we need fear no entangling webs Erica Jong
