Still Sailing.Need a bigger boat.

[cat03]

You know before the "bomb" no one would have ever known I had any kind of self doubt.And that would have included me.I hate that I feel this way.

I guess it is natural.But damn it I don't like it.How do I change that?

I can tell myself that I'm worth it.But that's not the same as knowing and feeling it.

boy, that was me too!

My C put it like this for me "Cat03 doesnt' need a man's approval, speciall stbx's approval to feel worthy" That man does not complete me, at one point I did think so, but due to the fact he's betrayed and lied to me I am not part of that man's life anymore. I'm not all 100% there (but pretty close) about healing my self esteem, but it's a work that takes time.