Hey peace- I am glad that the meeting with the L went well. Sure most people are done by the time they file for a D...or at least they think they are. You know this is just another another way for your H to escape his pain. Who knows if your H will ever figure things out but regardless you know that you gave it everything you possibly could. I like that you are stating in your response that you are willing to reconcile with C. Your H and his L will probably ignore that but I think it is good that you put it in there.
Grieve and detach more...your H leaves you with no choice. Put your focus and energy into your kids and your business. Do you think if your H watched the kids somewhere else, it would help you detach more?
With everything you have gone through, you have been so incredibly strong. I think you are past the worst of it...now is the time to start living and enjoying.