Kelly Jo, none of this stuff is easy is it? I want to direct you to someone who dealt with things very similar to what you are dealing with when it came to trying to work on rebuilding the R.
I believe sometimes you have to look for resources and then humble yourself enough to ask for help. Go see Rob, ask him to come take a look. He has some of the greatest perspective that I have heard on these boards. He helped me tremendously and has a way of clearly defining some goals for you to try and reach for.
