Leap of Faith on the Lake Erie Shore

[The Wifey]

(((Neil)))

You are ok Neil. Sweet, wonderful, caring Neil. Even when you are hurting you reach out and try to help blubbering heaps of sadness like myself.

Value yourself. You are wonderful. In my never to be humble opinion.

[Neilh23]

thanks PIsces, Ann, Kjo...i appreciate your sentiment...i really do. Kjo...i'm a teacher. I had to teach in the immediate aftermath of hte bomb...no idea how i pulled it off, but i got the best results ever on my final. LOL....guess that means either i'm a good teacher or i had some pretty smart kids

I'll tell you what.....a steak dinner with fresh corn on the cob will do wonders for anyones mood.

i took a bike ride earlier.......talked to myself the entire time....my emotional mind and rational mind argued....guess who won?

i'm better. thanks for your support everyone.....gonna have days like this.....but again, like i've said...its how you recover that makes the difference

[ann25]

gonna have days like this.....but again, like i've said...its how you recover that makes the difference

exactly!!

[upside_downer]

Sounds like you are on the upswing. That didn't take long

[Neilh23]

thats what i mean. it's how you come out of it that matters the most. i'm still searching for what makes me happy, and Smartcookie said it would be ok if i sent a note to my W apologizing for not being the husband she needed and that i would spend the rest of my life making it up to her if she gave me the chance.....i gotta think on it some more.

i keep going back to that day when i told her that i dind't want to date anyone else except for her...things have improved in my sitch pretty drastically since then..... i wonder....

man, my fingers are killing me! first guitar lesson tonite..cripes

[pisces9]

glad you are doing so much to GAL- bikes, guitars, yikes! what next? good work Neil....

i want to hear more of what you think about the letter idea....i would love a letter like that from my H but this is a different sitch than yours! that could make any girl melt...

[Neilh23]

Pisces-

it wouldn't be too long...just a short note saying "I'm sorry i wasn't the husband you needed to be. I understand how alone you felt during our marriage. If you let me, I'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you"

something along those lines. IDK.

[TwinDad]

Neil,

I would recommend against a letter like that, it is pursuiting and "begging". Also although Picses would love a letter like that she is in the same boat as we are....LBS. I would really get an opinion from a couple WAW. Remember talk /words are cheap....actions is where things get done. If she brings up these in things in an R talk then slip it in there as validation (the understand part....not the making it up to you part).

I think your best bet is to be a great Dad to your children (which should come easy) and a good friend to your W.

[Neilh23]

smartcookie liked the idea....and even gave me the inspiration since her H did that for her...like i said, IDK

everything else, yeah i know. It's interesting....i'm starting to realize the truth behind what J3B said the otehr day..about having hte power. the funny thing is that i know i do, but doubt my ability to realyl do it....LOL.....thank god for my IC today....

[Neilh23]

oh yeah. she's sending a birthday card to our niece, who's birthday is saturday. I sorta take that as a sign she still wants to be part of the family. Because if she did not want to be part of hte family, she wouldn't.

am i wrong to think that?