Im done.

[bluerain]

He came out to the house today. First he asked me if it would be okay if he came out. I told him that it would be fine, I wouldnt be there, but he could take the dog to the beach. After he got back from the beach he kept asking me if I was going to be home soon, I told him I had a lot of paperwork to do and probably would be a little while, and I had dinner plans, so I wouldnt be there for long. He texted me a while later and asked if I was on my way home yet and I had just left my office, so I said yes, and I would be home shortly. On the way I called him and asked if he really needed me to go by the house, because I was running late, he said no, I guess not. I told him that I needed to change anyway, so I actually would be by the house.

When I got here we chatted a little, he asked what the boxes in the garage were for, I told him that they were so I could pack some more of his things. He kind of smiled and chuckled. He said that he should probably get going, and I asked him to come to the greenhouse with me, I showed him some stuff in there, and when we were leaving I asked him if he was ok, he said "yeah, I guess" I said well, you just have a really strange air about you, he said that he was just in a really weird place. He asked me how I was doing, I said that I felt better than I had in years, he said oh, thats good. The he choked up and said he had to go, and said, while crying, "Im so sorry for everything" He got in his truck and I put my hand on the door and said "H, you tell me if you need anything, ok?" He said "yeah".

Now I cant stop thinking about him, I did a little snooping on his myspace, and he has been saying he was sad, and melancholy, and she hasnt posted anything new on his page in over a week. I went to her page and it said she was confused.

Imagine, a relationship founded on lies not working out?!

I am so confused, he hasnt actually said he wants to reconcile or anything, I was thinking that I need to clarify what I said about feeling better than I had in years, as I really meant better than I had in a long time, not really in years. He leaves for 9 days tomorrow, and I think thats perfect, I dont know what I should do, so the time to think will be nice.