Oldtimers: Return or not..what finally happened?

[Sanderika]

OW spent night with my H. She is still there.

naej, I know you are right about what he sees. I know it is something wonderful to him, why else would he be with her.

It still hurts that H isn't apparently seeing in me what he once did.

I hate this place.......

I have a window to the world most LBS don't have. It is hard not to hear and see it all as it is happening.

I can't even imagine the day right now that H marries someone else.

Heck, I can't get beyond the day to decide to stand or file.

I can't imagine him coming to me and handing me papers after all this time either.