Thanks KJo. Today was interesting. I finally got a call back from a friend who has helped me deal with previous parts of my story and has the sordid background to understand the bad place my angry was headed. He had some insights into my W and her upbringing that help things a little. He said that he kept wondering when I was going to get angry....
Then, work work work. Then, home to a new behavior with the kids. Things were trucking along pretty well then I got broadsided. My son told me a story about how Mommy was fishing and caught 2 walleyes on the same double hook. Oh [censored]!! It nearly overwhelms me with something to even type about it. I can't even go there. Just gotta detach.
I have not snooped, not even a little bit, and I didn't yell at the kids today. I gave myself a gold star. Seriously, I will give myself a star on the calendar for every day I can not yell at the kids and spend time with them instead of hiding in my bedroom.
