I did not feel very well all day. I have a heart thingy. Sometimes my heart goes into triple time. About 150 beats per minute. Found out Jan 2007, I have an electrical problem. Not life threatening. Learned some techniques to stop it. It can go on for a day or so. Sometimes I can make it stop quickly. I have to lay down on my side and bear down hard for about 20 seconds. It makes me feel like I have just finished running or something. Sweaty. Just sitting down. Happened as soon as I got to work this morning and haven't been able to stop it. It's a pain in the ass.
On the way home, I remember D11 telling me that mom was going to get off at 5:30 and then take them to Spectrum tonight. I got off late so I figured they might not be home when I got there. Roomies car was not there. I walk to the door and D6 opens it. She is still not home. I go sit in S14's roomie. He catches me up on the day.
I ask him when he is leaving. He is not sure yet. I tell him that mom is moving on Friday. "Yeah."
I tell him that he can always stay here while he figures it out. Apparantly his dad needs to find an apartment, too. I tell S14 he can stay here as long as he wants. Roomies place won't have room for him and his stuff. "Yeah, I know. My dad said that he plans on inviting you over for games and fights and stuff. That ya'll can be friends."
Just what I wanted. Be friends with roomies ex.
I say great. Roomie comes home and comes and sits down too. I know she is wondering what we're talking about. She even asks. Just stuff S14 says.
"How are you?" she asks. "Tired." Pause "Do you want to go to the Spectrum with us?" "Yeah, I guess." I really wasn't planning on it. "What does everyone want for dinner? Hot dogs, grilled cheese sandwiches." I say "We still have chili left over." We are sitting looking exhausted. I'm sitting on his futon and she is facing me on his chair.
I attempt to get up, "Okay, what do we want?" We look at each other like we do not want to answer. Too pooped to want to do anything. "Hot dogs?" "I guess" she says.
I make dinner. She changes. Kids change. We eat. They are ready to go. I still don't feel up to working out or swimming. She goes to bathroom. S14 goes to tell her he will wait outside. "Ask your dad if he is going with us!" S14 yells at me, "Dad, are you going with us?!" I walk past him to my room. "No. I don't feel well." I change and lay down on bed. Roomie comes out. "Good night." Very chipper. Her sarcasm.
Aside from me not feeling good, should I have accepted the invite and gone?
Should I accept invites to stuff like that in the future? IF it happens. Where all of us are together.
Last edited by hopeful4her; 07/30/0803:55 AM.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."