Memories keep sneaking in....I still miss him!

[Treese]

Snodderly....you hit the nail on the head....I am anxious after I talk to him...and it is the "fix"....that's perfect...after I was on the phone with him and then got my cry out I felt better...

I was so angry with him after he talked to son..I was telling him the days I needed to go out of town with my mom for 3 days and it changed to the first part of a week instead of the last part and his response was...."it changed again....what if I want to do something"...geez....he's going out of town this weekend..and I am going out of town on his "love child's" birthday...I just can't be here when it happens...seeing how it is the day before mine....it hurts...anyway..I was angry with him because he still controls my emotions....I'm trying but somehow he controls them..I was in such a good place last week....I need to get back there...

Dry....I understand totally what you are saying and I agree...he will need to see I've moved on without him.....

Di....I thought about you today and I wanted to text you but I didn't know what time your appt. was....I think you need to tell him also that you know....just so he knows you know....everyone was giving you great advice....I wrote my H a letter in the very beginning and then tore it up...it was 6 pages long but I felt better after writing it...my H would have just thrown it away without reading it....Good Luck...i will be praying for you...


Oh....guess what Snodderly....I added to my tattoo...it now has 3 leaves with the names of my children in them...it's beautiful...