I didnt realize just how much I lost of 'myself' just trying to please him all the time.
I am naturally a calm person but /w him I was on edge all the time. I have to say this turned out for the better for the most part.
Wow. I could have written that myself.
jak, yoyo, kat, sue...hiya back atcha!!!!
I had a wonderful weekend off with the girls. I came and went with them as I pleased (H works all weekend). Last Thursday, H and I went out for dinner, drinks, and gambling. He waffled a bit about the divorce, but isn't turning back, trust me.
Saturday night was a bit rocky. I took the girls to H's moms house for her birthday party. The plan was me to take them, H to meet us after work, me leave, H bring them home. I just feel very lonely and out of place with in-laws right now (nothing they have done, they like me more than H at the moment).
H didn't like when I left, followed me out, wanted me to stay, begged me to stay. I started crying and just said "Let me leave, please" and he did. Turns out, he was very upset, started drinking when I left. His sister called me to come get the girls (they wouldn't let him leave, it kind of got ugly). I called H, told him to stay put and I went and got the girls. He didn't seem drunk to me one bit, but I am glad it went smoothly. He heard from me the next day about his misjudgement.
Today was our mediation appt. We were supposed to file after today. H lost all his paperwork. Yup. Showed up empty handed, with nothing. Our 2 hour appt was 40 minutes long. We can't file until he gets those things done.
Don't worry, folks. This isn't a sign. He just hates work. Trust me. I am googling "kids divorce books" and he is googling "cancun vacation packages". We are still headed in the same direction.
