Trying ... well if you can call it that, I guess.

[AliSuddenly]

Hi Abbey... I understand. As you always explain things so well! Its nearly destroyed me at times being a "best friend" to my ex, and constantly putting on a brave face, a front, a smile, when I am dying inside.. and I am not a sufferer of depression and he hasnt got an OW. Its taken so much out of me, I've had nothing left for others for the past year really...so I thikn it would take even more enormous strength to do that with an OW to contend with and clearly, you took the right decision to protect yourself - you just arent up to it and I dont blame you! Like I said, I am amazed at Lisas strength and fortitude, I dont thikn I could have done what she has done, but if you want to read her posts, her thread is here...OneDay

You are doing really well in teh face of adveristy, with your classes and taking steps back to old friends..all of these "firsts" without your life partner are so hard. I found this weekend hard - I actually didnt see my BFF for a YEAR becuase I couldnt face seeing her without him around, its wierd. So I do understand.

Thanks for the explanation about the affair and your efforts to tell him the truth - thats just astounding that he wont believe you considering the lengths that you and the OM have gone to, staggering. I hope he wakes up and sees what a mess he has gotton himself into, a clingy gold-digging needy mother of 4 neraly 20 years his junior!? The odds are stacked against them I think.

Thanks for your posts on my thread Abbey, you have been a massive help as my experience of depression, like I said, is so limited. I have read books and the website depressionfallout was really helpful, but your posts are so honest and personal, they have helped me understand what he may be experiencing.

Ali xxx