OK just to follow up on my GAL activities...today I went for a long walk on the beach with a coworker after work, and she let me talk about the situation for the entire time. I wasn't negative about it, just expressed my feelings and concerns, and this felt very good. For maybe 10 minutes we talked about something else, and I felt mildly better. As I'm pretty much on the brink of tears all of the time now, this was a big step.
I'm still in the panic mode though, and can only see things in terms of periods of emptiness. This weekend will be my first weekend away from the house, and it kills me that H will be sitting comfortably in our house with our pets while I am trying to occupy myself in a sparsely furnished apartment instead of relaxing on our furniture with our things. It feels so unnatural not to get on the train and go to my house...I can only hope that the house feels empty to him without me.
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
